Perceptions

I enjoyed the other morning too, he says. Forcing you to take it. I enjoyed the mixture of sex and pain and brutality. Forcing you to fuck with panic and pain so close at hand. Making you go where you think you can’t. Sunday morning, after a rather brutal beating…

Expectations

So I am filled with anticipation about tomorrow night.  I know I shouldn’t be, because like as not, my expectations will be too high, and the result will not meet them, and then, no matter how wonderful the night is, there will always be that little shadow hanging over it.…

Primary Function

My relationship with my SO, in regards to BDSM, is not always clearly defined.  Oh the roles themselves when we are in that space–he is Top, I am bottom–are always very clear, but within our “real life” relationship we are equals, and it is only when we enter that space…

Reclamation

I can’t truly call it “reclaiming,” because honestly? his hold on me never left. It is there, no matter where I go, what I do, who I am with. And yet he has reclaimed me, made me his again, made me remember that, no matter where I go, I belong…

Anniversary Post

Today is, almost to the day, the one-year anniversary of the first time W and I met. And what a year it’s been! I started this blog soon after that auspicious beginning, and have chronicled our relationship and many of the things we have done in that time, right here.…

Morning, in the Girl’s Bed

I wake in her bed, the flash of lightening brightening the room, illuminating the white of the goosedown comforter tangled around her warm, tanned body where it is wrapped around mine. Wrapped around mine. I have just woken in my girlfriend’s bed with her warm, soft body wrapped around mine.…

Morning, in the Girl's Bed

I wake in her bed, the flash of lightening brightening the room, illuminating the white of the goosedown comforter tangled around her warm, tanned body where it is wrapped around mine. Wrapped around mine. I have just woken in my girlfriend’s bed with her warm, soft body wrapped around mine.…

Early HNT – The Big Bed

I love my big bed… especially with all the people I love in it. I had an incredible weekend. Full of love, laughter, joy…a little pain (the good and the bad kind), some tears, lots of hugs and cuddles and yummy sex and seeing my guys enjoy my girl and…

Emotional Masochism

(Used in conjunction with a Creative Commons License) Me: I do know that, for me, after we scene and in the days following…I feel very submissive and subjugated…(and) the misery afterward enhances that feeling, keeps me in that headspace, and I like that.  I don’t want to let go of it…

Home again

W got home last night.  Can you see me doing my happy dance?? I was so excited and nervous to show him what I’d done to his yard…fours days of hard labor, weeding, planting, shoveling, digging, hauling…and it looks so beautiful now and it was worth it all even the…