Cripple

Sometimes I believe I am an emotional cripple. I can’t function when he’s not here; or at least not well. I pine for him.  Like seriously, old-timey-style pining, where I feel like the ache inside of me is so huge I can’t swallow around it, can’t catch my breath, want…

Dark Odyssey Wrap-Up (Yeah I know, it was a long time coming…)

I really am crappy at follow-up. I start things and don’t finish, say I’m going to do something and then get my head turned my the next shiny project, have something I want to talk about here in my blog, and have maybe even made notes about or mentioned in…

After The Fall

I had to post this. W sent me the pics for this post about the scene that came before this picture, and while I love those pics (they tell a good story!) I think this one tells an even better one. Of course right after this moment he grabbed me…

Collars, Symbolism & Ritual

Edit: I started this post several days ago.  In the interim there has been a subtle shift in W’s…attitude about? Or appreciation for?…my “chain.” I think…he actually likes it. Like in more than a “Hey, that’s hot!” way.  Like maybe…maybe he likes the symbolism of it too.  Or maybe he…

Relationship Dynamics & Labels

I recently read a post on Fetlife (Every Relationship is Different, by Lady_Elsa, if you have access to FL) that really resonated with me. I posted it in the Twisted Tryst group on Fet because we are headed there next week, and it seemed to echo so much of the…

Love, Guilt, Obligation, and Bel Canto

I am feeling a bit guilty right now.  And not in that yummy, “Oh, I’m such a bad girl!” way.  🙁 I was a bit of a schmuck today.  My guys are so wonderful to me. So very, very good in so many ways: supportive, loving, open-hearted, truly caring, always…

Landmines

Landmine: a hidden trigger that when stepped on by the unsuspecting, can blow everything to hell. Or, conversely, can be used as a learning tool to work through the issue, and talk about it, promoting growth in oneself and between partners. The second option, of course, sounds like what everyone…

In Praise of “Normal Life”

Sometimes in my online readings, by coincidence or fate, I’ll read two very different pieces of writing that will spark thoughts on the same topic, though perhaps (as in this instance) from different perspectives.  A post by Kaya on the nature of her relationship and another on Fearless Press, Living…

Balance (Part 2)

So where was I?  Oh yes, on the idea of “balance.”  It came up again over the weekend that we took the pictures you saw in my first post on the topic, and later, again, as we started making preparations for Dark Odyssey – Fusion.  Not as something I shared…

Balance (Part 1)

I’ve been thinking a lot about balance lately. First it came up in a discussion on Fetlife.  The OP mentioned the need to “balance” her relationships, and someone else asked what that meant. Seems pretty self-explanatory to me, but the discussion that ensued was an interesting one, and I enjoyed…