A Different Kind of Masturbation

I reach down between our sweat-slickened bodies and grasp his cock; the shaft warm, wet and thick in my hand.  He’s been fucking me all morning, and was just about to pull away, but I’m not ready yet.  I pull him closer by his cock, until he is nestled again…

First Orgasm

Once upon a time W put me in a cage and told me to write a list of all the men I have had sex with. The result was a list of ~50 men, written on a couple sheets of lined paper, that ended up in my computer bag, folded…

Changing Dynamics

As any of you who follow me on Twitter, my poly blog (A Poly Life), or Fetlife know, W’s been out of town since the beginning of November, and won’t return until the beginning of December. As you may also know, I have a hard time with separation from either…

Reconnecting

I felt fuzzy all day today, my edges blurred and insubstantial.  This is not a bad thing, in fact I am quietly enjoying it: letting myself experience and taste it, ease into and enjoy this warm, cocooned feeling.  So often my life has clear, defined edges, a sharp clarity in…

Juxtapositions

There’s those times when he ties my hands to keep me from protecting myself. From blows, from slaps, from whips or crops or canes. I know those times well, and I know the feeling of helplessness, of fear or rage or panic, when I can’t get loose, can’t protect myself,…

Obedience

Well.  As noted in my post earlier, we’re back from Twisted Tryst, all whole, healthy and happy.  A wonderful good time was had by all, I do believe, and now I understand W’s assertion that camp events are just…special. I won’t say “better” than a hotel event, because there are…

Defining “Ownership”

An online acquaintance asked me the other day about what it means when I call W my “Owner” or when I say I am “owned” by him, especially in light of the fact that a) I have another primary partner and b) the only control he exerts over me is…

The Morning After

As I hinted at in this post, my welcome home didn’t end that evening. The next morning I woke slowly to Ad’s hand on the back of my neck, not forceful, just resting there under my hair, stroking my skin softly. W was asleep on his side facing me, I…

Play Party Medicine

I went to our local monthly play party with Ad last night. We haven’t been to a play party alone in quite awhile. Generally I prefer to do lifetsyle stuff with both guys or with W. It’s a small thing, and probably significant only to me, but because W is…

Need

I am sipping a pina colada and watching a storm come in over Banderas Bay. Yes, I am posting about kink even though I am having none here in Puerto Vallarta. It’s cruel to do this to myself, like waving a bag of heroin in front of a junkie. I…